To say there are some powerful energies working at present, is an understatement. How do you describe the indescribable ?
Anyway, a kundalini surge as big as I have experienced, last Thursday was triggered. And continued over the weekend and is only now beginning to subside.
And this was reflected out there. Everything and everyone is now effected.
The Beltane Fire Festival in Edinburgh, Scotland.
And the weather in the US.
And other signs.
And poor old Schrodinger’s Cat.
I said it would be the week from hell and it was. It involved sitting next to Prince Charles, Kingsbridge, the door to Narnia and a discussion about fear as a barrier with a Progression Coach.
As the week progressed, the intensity built inside me and it ended in a meeting with Kali, who then withdrew the safety net. And chopped me up into little pieces.
And then the dam broke and the water came flooding through and I took a ride into the insanity of the Mind. And what impressed upon me, was how much humanity is controlled by fear and especially survival. And how brainwashed we are by the concepts of work and money. And taking orders and doing things we don’t want to do.
Over the weekend I had a conversation with a friend who was involved in the Cold War and NATO’s atomic strategy and I asked him if he had been given orders to make a nuclear first strike, without a reason, would he have done ? He replied ‘Yes’ and that’s what his training was for. But he is a lovely man. Its just an indication of the workings of our mind.
At a personal level there has been a big consequence from the ride through hell. In short, I am giving up paid work – I didn’t have any – or government hand outs and leaving my survival totally in the hands of God. This is Letting Go and Letting God in a big way.
In a sense, it is surrender to God. And also acceptance of Death. I may starve to death. I don’t know. Personally, I would prefer not to and all donations would be gratefully received but don’t worry if you don’t want to, or money is tight. It doesn’t matter. To be honest, I’ve taken a few leaps of faith over the years but this feels like the biggest yet.
But I understand only too well, this action is not for everyone especially if you have dependants. The Family is difficult when God enters the equation.
And the search for Job is over. The Universe wants me to go full time. This will now be my job. In the longer term, I want to expand Merovee. I have a few ideas but any ideas you have would be welcome. Over the years, it has been a lone wolf effort but I am sensing now is the time to have a more collective site, however it manifests itself.
And when I say ‘Is’, this reflects my spiritual belief system so feel free to disagree.
I’ve gone over this before, I know, but Everything is Allowed and Everything is Hallowed. Along with ‘All things bright and beautiful’, ‘All things not so bright and horrible’ are Hallowed.
God allows us total freedom. And murder, war, death, pestilence, illness, pain, old age and the rest of it are allowed. God has no morals or judgment. This makes God seem like a complete sadist who wakes up every morning and plans what suffering to inflict upon us. But this is not the truth. Because of the dysfunctional belief of our Self and God and the external world, we create the physical reality.
It in a sense, its all about You but at the same time, its about Us. It’s a paradox. And acceptance of the totality of yourself is connected with Everything Is Allowed and Hallowed because you are Allowed and are Hallowed.
Along with the things you like about yourself, the parts of you that you don’t like are allowed. And this includes everything – your thoughts, your actions, your emotions, your body, your likes and dislikes, and even an illness or addiction. They are all part of you and you are totally allowed and totally hallowed. And everything others do, is all hallowed as well. It is the judgment and guilt, we carry in the mind that keeps us separated from each other and the divine aspect within us. And it’s all an illusion.
And Time. And the River of Time. Guilt is connected to the past. One of the weirder aspects that has cropped up is how the Universe says ‘look’ at an event in the past and how it connects with something else. I’ve given up trying to understand what I don’t consciously understand.
The Beginning of an Era. The first mass shooting – 1 / 8 / 1966 – at the University of Texas. Or possibly The Beginning of an Error.
‘AUSTIN, Texas — Before Virginia Tech and Columbine, Sandy Hook, Aurora and Orlando, there was the University of Texas tower shooting.
It was shortly before noon on a sweltering Monday morning, Aug. 1, 1966, when architectural engineering student and Marine-trained sniper Charles Whitman climbed to the observation deck of the 27-story clock tower in the heart of UT’s flagship Austin campus, armed with rifles, pistols and a sawed-off shotgun.
He killed 13 people and wounded more than 30 others before authorities gunned him down. He had killed his wife and mother prior to heading to the tower, one victim died in the hospital a week later and medical examiners eventually attributed a 17th death to Whitman in 2001 — a man who had been shot and wounded in his one functioning kidney and elected to stop dialysis treatment.
The killing spree introduced the nation to the concept of a “mass shooting” outside the context of a military battlefield, coining a phrase in American lexicon that’s become chillingly commonplace. Dozens of times since Whitman, a lone gunman has claimed large numbers of victims in single shooting incidents.’
And is connected, in a way I don’t fully understand, with the suicide of a pupil at Eastbourne College in England from the Tower about the same time.
And in conclusion, putting aside weird Time connections.
You are always safe and you are always hallowed.